Awe 8ully, that's terrible to hear. I've had only a few dogs in my life, and it's been hard when each one has passed. I hope you heal well. We all keep creatures in our hearts, like people.
My mom does hide from herself in the alcohol. She's been an addict to it as long as I ever remember. She was in rehab often when I was very young. For awhile there, about 4 years ago, she had been drinking again for a year since dad died and she would tell everyone it was for pain. She told herself she needed it because of back disfunction and a broken rib. She wasnt able to afford health insurance or pain medication, she couldn't get Obama care or Medicaid, she had lossed dads blue cross blue shield, so she continued to drink.
Now I watch her digress quickly. COPD and major psychological issues, she's barely there when shes sober and drinks when she wakes up.
Ive just given up, I have communicated to friends and close family that I cannot even be bothered by it anymore for all the heartache and trauma shes caused me, especially in the past 4 years. I live in my own place, I dont have to be involved with her outside of letting my daughter see her, as she loves her grandma. Honestly if I knew anyone else or had any other family to visit weekly, I would. I always thought I would come back to illinois and reunite with my family, heh. What a time I've had being an optimistic imaginative fool <3 I feel better, after all these years, in this damned time we are in, I feel better, it's almost shameful for all the turmoil we have all faced, but its well passed the times I prayed for it. I only need what I have, and I have you and them, i have plenty.
Uggh, I've missed t so much.
