How terrible a person I am.
Wha...?! I wanted to kill someone during those 1st months. You are NOT a bad person.
My son had colic and screamed solidly for 4 months (I think I've mentioned this)
Yes, you have. I also mentioned it happened to us too. I still have haunting nightmares of those 4 first months.
The thing is my husband worked (I should say "works") 10-12 hours a day and I wasn't working at the time. He did offer to take care of our daughter but since I couldn't sleep anyway when she cried it was always me. I could've slept during the day when she napped but those damned circadian rhythms rarely let me.